Today’s the last day for the earth to complete orbiting around the sun. One year. Twelve months. Fifty two weeks. Three hundred and sixty five days. Tomorrow a new year comes. One more sleep to start anew.
The year 2016 is one of the most colourful years of my life. I’m not saying it’s been a pretty easy and fun ride for it had it’s ups and downs. It gave me a lot of love and heartache & for this I am grateful– I come out of the year not unscathed but just better than I was before it started.
We’re always excited to ring in the new year because it gives us hope and it let’s us reset and realign our goals. While I feel the same, this coming new year, I will keep my ‘resolutions’ to myself since they’re not really different from my 2016 goals and I figured I’ll reveal them during my year end post instead. Heehee.
I’m writing this as sort of a breakup letter to 2016. It’s time to let go of the year that has made an impact in my life so I can look forward to the new year.
The year of change
Change is the only thing constant and it has been present in all the years of my life. This year was a bit different. Though the changes that happened weren’t major, they still made a fair contribution to my life. I guess I need to get used to it–being surprised by the changes that come my way. One thing I know is you really can’t force change to happen. It has to happen on its own.
The year of self-realization
I’ve realized so many things have happened in 2016. Most of them I figured out internally. It was the year I learned about myself–through the way I interact with other people and through the way I react on situations.
I’ve come to know my potential as a woman, as a wife, as a mom, as a friend, a daughter, a sister, and even as a blogger. The roles I play may not be great nor even life changing but knowing that I am where I’m supposed to be while fulfilling these roles is enough reason to just continue being me–awkward and ambivert. Haha! Achievement unlocked na ko with my own internal struggles guys. So for 2017 I am hoping to achieve self-actualisation naman.
Thinking about changing my profile on Instagram, I couldn’t come up with what to write. So I wrote mother of 2. I guess this role has defined me but I don’t mind really. For my years, months, and days mostly revolve around my kids.
Becoming a mom is one of the best things that ever happened to me.
The year of trying
I like trying new things but the irony is I’m such a scaredy cat. If no one will challenge or push me to try, I would be okay not to. Kinda nice to know there are people in my circle who are there for me to push me in the right direction. To challenge the adventurer in me and to be with me along the way. 2016 is the year of trying for me. Literally trying new things such as the time when I stepped out of my comfort zone and climbed a mountain for the first time in my life.
It was the year I succumb to trying. Even though I was afraid or scared, I tried. Even though I know I can and will get hurt, I tried. Even though I am uncertain about what’s going to happen, I tried.
It was also the year of being consistent with fitness for me. I’ve tried different kinds of workout but I’ve sticked with Pilates and have started lifting and focusing on strength conditioning with 360 PRO. The latter part of 2016 validated how committed I am into making fitness part of my life forever (wow merong forever?!). I’m also doing something I never had the courage to do on my own because introvert problems guuuys! Hahaha. But since I met my fitness beshies, I’m more than excited to do something new with them this coming year. I can’t wait to reveal what we’re working on for 2017!
The year of vulnerability
Trying and getting out of one’s comfort zone often times make one vulnerable. In all honestly, I dislike being vulnerable (hello who does naman kasi di ba?) but I learned in 2016 that it’s okay to be vulnerable from time to time. I doesn’t mean you’re weak, it just goes to show that you’re only human. I used to be afraid of showing who I am because I don’t want to be judged. I don’t want to be stereotyped. I don’t want to be labeled. But as I grow older I’m slowly learning not to care about what other people say as long as I’m being honest with myself. 2016 indeed was dedicated to learn more about myself. It felt good. It felt refreshing to get to know me. It’s liberating to be completely honest with one’s self and this made me realize that being vulnerable wasn’t so bad after all.
The year I felt most alive
2016 wasn’t bad. It was actually a pretty good year despite what my Feng Shui told me. If I were to sum up 2016, it was the year where I felt most alive. I got to travel for work, I got to travel with my family. I got to rekindle relationships with my family & friends, I got to do what I like and take care of my kids at the same time. And the most important thing is that I got to be me. I got to know myself a little bit more. What I can do, who I really am, and what I want in my life.
Go where you most feel alive.
No year is ever easy. There will always be change, challenges and circumstances that will affect you one way or another, it’s just a matter of how you’ll act and react to these things that can decide how your life will be.
Good bye 2016. You were weird yet you were memorable. I’ll try to remember all the moments and lessons you’ve taught me & I’ll bring them with me come 2017.
Happy new year everyone! 🙂